My Stroke
My stroke
I was always - a happy go lucky, lady.
I did not show them, that.
But in my heart of hearts, my Sat Guru knew me. What I was able to handle. And everything else. My sat guru knew me like I didn't know myself. Even now. When I say this. Even now.
Gita's marriage was in October 2020.
After that, the vaccinations I received, Covid 19, made me weak. And I was a little busy. What with office work, and then house work, ( the full vegetarian menu, breakfast-lunch-dinner, during the lockdown and afterwards) and outside shopping, and lunches, dinners. And then, the settling into parent's house. Slowly learning the new market!
There comes a time, when it all gives way.
All the work, piece by piece. I was getting tired.
And the time is May 17, 2021.
Until then, I was to perform a gazillion tasks at a go. Without a breath to breathe! And then, a stroke.
Papa thought something weird was coming from my mouth, when I was sleeping. My stroke! I didn't realise what I was saying. And doing.
He called Rose. And Sunita. And Gita and Pavan.
He never had a stroke patient before.
But then, nor have I.
I monitored my mother's health issues, the father in laws health issues, my mother in laws health issues.
But stroke ?
Papa put on a breathing machine.
Ambulance came.
Ambulance people needed to go for a little longer term, in their coursework! They were staring down at me!! At a stretch.
Papa said to them, go and get her! It's getting late! Or so I am told. Stroke is bad.
I was brought to changi hospital.
But, the pump was taking 4 hours. By which time, I was going- gone! I had only 4 hours after the first stroke to survive. And nobody knew when the first stroke was.
I was rushed to SGH. Which had a special pump.
And...
I survived.
Aphasia! Nobody was willing to say this. Not the hospital staff.
Muscle issues. I was supposed to be put under some machine. I survived that.
Only thing is - Aphasia.
I had to relearn everything that I was doing.
How does that work? I really don't know.
The sounds that I was making, were jarring.
In truth, I did not think I would make a speech, like right now. Or even better, afterwards - even a better speech coming out of me.
That time, was the most depressing! Aphasia! And all that it entails. Writing and speaking were affected. Not just speech.
SGH introduced me to :
Ouch. Speech therapy. Exercise. Music.
I tried it all.
May 17th until now.
I have improved. Music therapy was doing great for me. I am able to speak fluently, like right now.
But, later last year, 2021, my appetite was dwindling. I stopped eating my old favourites. Mee siam kuah and char kwah teow.
I would drink soup. And that's it. No rice, chepati, dosa, idlis. I was unhealthy dropping weight.
My (ck) levels are low. Dr. Chiong Yi had some tests with my blood samples. And I had to repeat the hospital stay. Jan 5th to Jan 11th. The potassium drip. And cycles of blood, in the early morning. And neurology acupuncture. So pain!
And 3 tests of liver.
The Cdhd gastric doctor indicated that, I had to do a liver test. Jan 24. Cholesterol issues.
What an exciting time again. My Sat Guru!
My Sat Guru! Be careful with me!!